What I am thinking...

Since, I haven't had the time or energy to do things (projects, creative-ness, fun things, etc), I thought I might share the things that are taking up my time and mind these days. Instead of projects, I will share thoughts. Mostly, because I need to vent and share my feelings with family and friends (and some strangers).

My current thoughts are about my two-year old Ella. She is smack-dab in the middle of the terrible two's. It is constant fits, crying, "no's" and tantrums in my house (and the stores which is what really puts me over the edge). The inability to communicate only makes things worse. As a mother with little sleep, hormones raging, lack of energy and recovering from a c-section, I really can't put up with much more of her.

And I don't like that I feel like this. I don't like that my life doesn't feel like anything I remember it to be. I don't know what to do. I know it is stage and it will all pass at some point. But I feel like I have been dealing with it for the past 6 months and probably have another 6 months to go .... and that is a long time in passing.

I pray constantly to have more patience with her. To not get emotional over what she does. I pray for guidance in how to relate to her, how to talk to her and how to help her to not act out and be "terrible". But I don't know if any of it is working or if I am even doing my part. I don't know what the solution is except maybe time.
Everyone always says that time passes so quickly and before I know it they will be older. I always think to myself, I can't wait for her to be older and not TWO.

I really do love my daughter and someday i know our days will be full of more fun moments and laughter instead of the crying and disciplining it tends to be these days. But until then, I have to share my thoughts and write my feelings down, just to get through it all.